Our first home born lamb!

As spring approaches, we have been waiting for our ewes to lamb.  We have 3 – an orphan lamb we raised ourselves, Shouty, who is sadly the only left of the 4 lambs we bottle fed.  But then we were given 2 more 'yearlings' last autumn – one blackface, one Cheviot (they have white faces).
Last winter we took all 3 to a neighbour's croft where they were to meet and get to know a handsome fella who would see them right!
As we're not modern or rich enough to scan our ewes, we have just had to be patient and wait to see what nature brings. Yesterday nature was early!
My shepherdess friend had messaged me to say to watch out how much we are feeding the sheep as they are looking pretty fat and this can lead to birth complications. I went up to the field in the afternoon to separate the sheep from the goats and the brightest whitest little darling scampered down to the gate along with our 3 sheep! Adorable, and just so easily and suddenly arrived!

I moved him and Mum into a maternity shed I had luckily been preparing early and left them alone to carry on bonding, have a feed and rest a bit. (I remember how it feels to have just given birth, even withour the tea, jam and toast, it must be similar!)  They got on just fine – phew! No dramas!

But here is the conundrum – when our shepherdess popped by for a look, she pulled us up on the details. Her ram is a cheviot, our ewe is a cheviot and yet the lamb has a black face.... it seems the Dad was not her ram after all...

Our next door neighbour has a collection of rams that he overwinters near the house, on the other side of our fence. I can't remember a day when they got in to our side – they are huge old men with enormous curly horns – not the fence hopping kind. 
But there had been a day that would explain it. Mark and I had been standing at the kitchen window looking at some sheep out on the road and wondering whose they were.  Then we recognised them as our own!  Very unusual that they would break out, but as we went over to call them back in, I'm sure I saw one of them blow a kiss to the next door rams!  Ewes are known to go to the men when the time is right and it would explain why when we took all 3 to our arranged ram, he only fancied one of them – the other 2 were already in lamb and he knew to save his energy.

So now we are waiting for Shouty – who is enormous - to lamb in the next day, we suppose. Then we will have some time to catch up before our final ewe gives birth on what had been the planned date in April.

Thank goodness the sun is shining – I'm sure it has also had a hand to play in pinging the egg timer.

The geese are back

I know I say this too early every year, but I think spring is coming. It is only February, but the goats are frollicking in the field, the sun has been out more than in this week and despite a generous snowfall, I think we are all feeling the power in the sun.  Even the solar panels have started to work their magic.

This year we may get lambs. We have 3 sheep – one our own bottle reared lamb Shouty, and 2 others gifted to us who I have named Sniffy and Pretty – no explanations needed.

They went to see a fine fellow in the next door village before Christmas, and while we were told that they were too fat and spoilt to have been 'receptive' I do wonder whether it is all grass on those bellies or something more.

Time will tell...

Library of senses

I have a collection of memories, stored in senses. A tape of music from a younger me, a moisturiser that reminds me of another place and time, photographs that immediately make me feel close to other people and a kalaedoscope of past feelings.

I keep them all in a box in the loft.

There are diaries there too that help me to pin down a random feeling, memory or thought.  It helps to get rational with this library sometimes – it helps to have a catalogue system, or its all just clutter.

I like to keep my history. Its like a little holiday, to somewhere familiar.

Gertrude & Henry

It being January, we were battered as usual by some pretty fierce storms, wind gusting to 90mph, schools cancelled for 2 days but thankfully no damage to anything much at home.  The met office has a new system for naming storms, so this pair were Gertrude (the name for an underwater phone used by submarines) and Henry (Royal Harry's correct name, who knew?).

In a calm following the storm, the ground looks like a sponge that has drained all of it's water and is left looking a little off colour.  The grass is longing to grow again, but the sun just can't get over itself enough to break through the grey clouds.

Today felt a bit warmer though, there was a tentative glance towards spring as the last of the puddles disappeared and people emerged from their bunkers.

I really do think that when the weather is this bad in the Hebrides we would all be better off living under ground, or maybe in submarines, deep down in the oceans experiencing another world, while ours endures another January weather Drama up on top.

Oh thank god!

We have finally moved the goats into the top field. Oh My God, what a relief!

They had been in their field for over a year and there was absolutely nothing left to eat in it. Of course this was the whole point of having the goats; that they would eat the weeds and marsh grass so that we could make a lush field of grass for the sheep.   Permaculture at work, harnessing nature itself to cut down on human labour.   But it had got to the point where I was sawing down branches from the pine trees to feed them roughage, as well as their bagged feed and hay.

Dinner and a View

All we had left to do was a short stretch of fencing, on top of the hill.  We had run electric fencing all around the perimeter in the summer, but events overtook us as we just didn't complete the job. Immensely frustrating, so really satisfying now it is finally complete.

Their joy at being released into a smorgasbord of space and food variety was obvious.  Even my poor disabled goat suddenly forgot about her poorly feet and hobbled off up the hill.

A much bigger field!

Their shed has also been vastly improved, as the entrance is now on the opposite side and away from the prevailing wind and gales.  Originally revamped by us as a pig shed,  from an old sheep enclosure used by the blackhouse residents over a hundred years ago, the walls are 2 feet thick and there is an entrance area before the roofed enclosure, which should be an ideal sun trap in the mornings.

Poppy, Primrose and Milly will be very happy here, I know it.

Its a new dawn, its a new day….

Christmas was a blur this year, a collision of worlds and a reminder of all the jobs outside I have been neglecting because of working inside now.

My goats have worried me for months; their field is waterlogged from a year of rain, they have eaten everything in their field so that the ground looks shaved and last week the youngest mysteriously died. To be quite frank I feel she probably lost the will to live, facing another stormy cold muddy winter, she probably just thought, no I can't put up with this any longer.

Poor Snowdrop

It is very upsetting to lose livestock, I just cannot see these animals as automatons, incapable of thought, feeling or personality. The chickens, well they do seem pretty limited, but the goats are so physically big it seems as though they must posess more inside their minds? I do believe that animals will behave as you treat them (an idea that applies to humans too) but how their goaty minds work, I do not know.

I have felt guilty of the life they must lead, I make them live outside, in an open shed, all I really do us feed them well enough and try to make them as comfortable as I can. But when I do have time to give them some fuss, a stroke or a brush, it is unquestionable from their reaction that they enjoy it. They like physical contact, as well as the butting tussles they have with each other, they also huddle into each other for warmth and for comfort. Millie was the mother of the goat, Snowdrop, who died- they used to stand together, nuzzling necks and just enjoying the comfort from proximity. I think she must miss her now she’s gone, but for what reason I wonder? Is it just for selfish reasons?

All this wondering aside, goats do like human attention and I don't give them very much nowadays.

This holiday I have had the time to get properly dressed to go outside; waterproof trousers, extra socks and a good jacket. Dressed like this I could almost live outside myself! It has given me an insight into the life of an outside creature. The wind is a scented breeze not an uncomfortable blast. The day has its own time, never governed by the hands of a clock but by the whims of the weather. The goat’s main occupation is to graze, rest, regurgitate, repeat. Apart from the absolute boredome of it perhaps a life like that isn't so bad? Do they understand anything of the world they see and experience around them or are they ruled by emotion rather than any rationality. Do they have their own ideas about how the world works? When the moon comes out some nights, does this create a different calendar for them and extend their year? How different is the world for them?

As we go into 2016 I feel optimistic for the coming seasons. Despite the lack of summer last year, I can't help but feel this year will be a blinder again…. I resolve to organise my time (and footwear) better, to get out on the croft again and not get too preoccupied by office ways. In a few weeks we will move the goats from their shaved field and I wont have to cut down pine tree branches for them and throw them into their field.  For the first time they will step out onto the adjoining hill, covered in all important roughage for them to eat; heather, grasses, moss and rushes. Their view of the world will change, their perspective of the nearby fields and hills will be different and I am confident this will make them happier.  Or at least give them something to do and think about for a little while longer....

People of America....

I only met a few locals very briefly on our journey to the States, but they have still stayed with me.

Pilot of American Airlines:
On the flight into Philadelphia, the pilot would intermittently tell us of our course of action, and I couldn't help notice how much he sounded like Gil Scott Heron.
"We are currently cruising at 30,000 feet and anticipate landing in Philadelphia in 45 minutes, may I remind passengers that, the Revolution will not be televised..."
Obviously my own preconceptions have had an influence on my first experience of American culture.

Random passenger traveling home to LA:
When I sat one seat away from Pam, in the row behind my husband and 2 children, she couldn't help but remark on what a smart seating arrangement I had been given. Yes, I said, I had obviously tried to rebook the seats online, but - shucks - I'd still ended up on my own ;)
She was returning from a working trip all week In Philly, so had to do some spreadsheet stuff on the way, but otherwise we talked of work, of homes, of children and she showed me her recent (2nd) wedding photos.  She also wrote down her email address and directions of how to get to some great vineyards in Cali that offer free wine tasting tours.  I think we will be friends for life.

Checkout girl in Dollar General:
I chatted to Mark about how cheap our groceries were and she noticed my accent.   I had spent a bit of time working out what coins were worth what, so she asked 'Are you on holiday?'.
'Yeah,' I answered 'I haven't got a clue what this one is' I said holding up a dime (It is worth 10 cents but looks just like a 5p)
'What's it like where you're at?' she asked.  This was in the middle of the Mojave desert, in California City.
'Its wet - all the time' I said and 'we love it here because of the sunshine' - she rolled her eyes as if wondering what it would be like to have it rain so much.

Park warden in Red Rock Canyon:
He was pretty portly for an outdoors employee, but he was warm and friendly, even though he was telling us off for filling our RV with water, when the sign said not to. I explained his colleague had told us it would be ok, just for a half tank so he backed down and then let the drinking fountain spill over for a while to give the bees a drink.
We talked about the drought in California, how we had been using the Sat Nav to find a place with a lake or river, as we knew there would be trees and shade there.  Only when we got to 'Lake View Drive' or some such place, would we'd find the lake was long gone - one place even had some people dune buggying on the sand left behind.
He told us he was from the East coast and might go back in a few years, he was finding it hard to cope with the heat.  We said we were from Scotland and the sunshine was heavenly for us.  He explained he usually meets Europeans in the summer months - the campgrounds and parks are usually shut for the summer season because its too hot, but thats just when we all want to come and visit.
Strange concept, being shut for the summer.
Strange concept, that we are 'Europeans'.....?

The Hitcher
We had just driven the long road down through Death Valley and out through the Black Mountains. It was not a place to be stranded and it had not been a busy road.  Passing an old mine off to the side, I'd thought it strange that there was a car parked up there - not an off-roader, just a town car.  And then we saw him, his relief to see us was visible and he flagged us down to get a lift.
I looked at Mark as if to say, 'we couldn't not stop here' so we let him into the back of the RV, next to our kids and tried not to think of what happens in films.
He said he'd lost his keys while poking around in the old mine, looking for gold.  He'd had to drink his radiator water and he needed a lift back to Pahrump to get help - were we going to Las Vegas?  Unfortunately not, but we gave him a lift to Shoshone, the nearest town and as we pulled out of the petrol station, we passed him hitching his way back onto the interstate in the direction of Pahrump.
It is such a shame that we were so suspicious of just another person.  Awful that I imagined at one point how easy it would be for him to pull a knife from where he sat behind us and put it to my throat.
How awful that sensationalist films have tainted my view of the world and its people so much.  How guilty I felt for not being friendlier to him. But you know, I think he knew how he seemed to us as well and I don't think he held it against us.  I guess we'd all seen the same film.

The bird couple.
They arrived and pitched their tents beside us at Furness Creek. One tent for them and one mesh gazebo for their birds.  We couldn't help but go and introduce ourselves, especially after Morris and I were peeking through our RV curtains at them one early morning.  The way the man talked and cuddled the 2 parrots, letting one climb over and ride on his back as he made breakfast, was so adorable. 
The people came from Northern California, doing a trip of the state and taking in lots of interesting places for the birds.  The birds were parrots, very domesticated and obviously more human than parrot nowadays with all their special attention.  The people found it easy to take the birds everywhere, they even had little cages that could be attached to the front of their bikes so the birds could feel the wind beneath their wings.  The lady said they particularly liked going out in the kayaks.
We followed their advice to go to Red Rock canyon after Death Valley and could see why they had liked it so much. An incredible rock face houses hundreds of swifts, screetching and swooping in and out of the rocks. The parrots must have been fascinated by the new voices on the air above them.  While we sat out one night we even heard an owl hooting and could see his outline perched up on the top of the rocks above, possible watching us or maybe hypnotised by our fire like we were.